If Yoga has taught me anything, it’s how to find solid ground when there’s an earthquake. For me, this has been a lesson that has been hard fought to be learned. But as with anything, practice seems to make perfect, so the universe does like to test me (frequently) just to make sure that I’m really getting the message! The most recent test, as many of you know, was moving my family across Europe, to a country I had very little knowledge and absolutely no experience of; Bulgaria.
Thankfully, I am happy to report that we have arrived, safe and sound and so far our new life has started off really well. The Bulgarians are overall really friendly, the city of Sofia is beautiful, vibrant and full of culture and our new neighbors have already made us feel very welcome. And while I still get pangs of ache for home, for my friends and family, my yoga tribe and my studio, I am able to tap into my reserves of inner strength quite quickly and feel connected, even though I am thousand’s of miles away.
When Bernard and I were first presented with the offer to move, my first reaction was “absolutely no way”. Why on earth would I consider leaving my dream home, the business that I have lovingly built over the course of 5 years and all of my closest friends and family, not to mention my community, which I adore. In the moment, as far as I was concerned there was nothing left to discuss. The door was firmly closed. But as I sat there with my surface reflex reaction of seething to even have been asked to consider upsetting my perfect little life, something deeper was stirring inside, gently nudging that door open, just enough for my husband of 11 years to know that there might be a little more room for discussion. Wise enough to know now was probably not the time, he waited a couple days before broaching it with me again!
Why am I telling you this? Because on reflection, and even through the craziness of the move, I have had time to reflect. Or rather I have felt compelled to reflect because of the speed with which I have unearthed myself from my perfectly amazing life, into the vast, vast unknown. Why would I do this? Why would anyone do this? I have come to the conclusion that the very reason why I thought I wouldn’t consider moving, why I couldn’t imagine changing anything, is the very reason I ultimately made the decision to embark on this crazy adventure.
It is absolutely amazing what a solid foundation, an open mind and an open heart will do for a person’s ability to make decisions. I realised that so many of the decisions I have made in the past, or rather so many of the decisions I didn’t make were because I didn’t feel solid. I didn’t feel grounded in my core sense of security and that made me close myself off to taking any leap into uncertainty. The work we do in yoga, on, but particularly off the mat, is ALL about finding this core sense of solidity, finding one’s true Self beyond all the external uncertainty.
I don’t believe for one second that it is some random coincidence that once I dedicated myself, through my work and my own practice, to the practice of yoga, that everything in my life just got better! The more I surrendered to the practice, the more I started to attract an abundance of beauty and love into my life. I developed a deep sense of connection to my home, my community, my family, my friends, old and new, because of the fundamental principle of Yoga; developing a deep connection to my Self.
The moral of the story; Yoga gently guides you towards fearlessness. This invaluable skill of being able to turn inwards and find solid, unshakable ground will allow you to make decisions without the shadow of fear. Every opportunity can be considered because of an innate knowledge that whatever happens, it’s going to be ok. Life is there for living, taking chances, challenging yourself, experiencing new things, moving out of your comfort zone and Yoga gives us the gift to do all of this with an unshakeable belief and faith that “I’ve got this”.